In general : I'm a drifter, watch me go

I didn't go to school today because of some reasons of self sadness. But oh am I over it now.
I just went outside and the day smells of summer, slightly warm with a nice breeze cutting in to dance with the sunshine. I got dog poo on my shoe on this outside trip...but all well.
I'm so ready for summer now that it's killing me.
After 13 years of thinking about summer dreading its end I'm certainly ready to be able to be excited about the end of summer, in term celebrating the coming of fall.
I have no real plans for my life...but the summer...the feeling makes me think that wherever the wind lands me....
I will be happy. In general.

Alexis inspires me

I really want to give a shout out to one of my best friends in the world; Miss Alexis Hall! I love her so much, the optimistic way she looks at life makes me smile. She inspires me to do things that I love, and to be myself in doing these things. She is great in all her God given talents and imperfections. The girl is amazing!
Love you lots Alexis. <3


I'm making a list. Well a few. The things in life I want to do, need to do, should do...yes a DO list. I have been tweaking about a lot of things lately. And I don't really have the guts to say whats on my mind. But I've realized that when I say the things on my mind, get it out there...I feel so much better...So begins a newish era of self discovery.

articficial acid burns heavy

Far longer than anticipation
Floods the veins of your existence
Hallucinations
Creations of your own

Her eyes light up like rainbows
Curves like the bottle you keep your genie in
Voice of a siren
Lures you in

The floating parade of clouds
Multi-colored insane asylum
Tasty cotton
Words are running dry

Dancing away you take the lady's hand
Prancing goodbyes to your cares
Falling senseless to the worldly dares
Risk nation

Angel takes a cut in
Denial
What is the best thing
You're the victim now my friend

You let go
Falling deeper
Connecting to all that has failed
Become better will you..?

Welcome
This is your artificial acid trip
Deception that never ends

Dear, Love

Today I was looking through a huge stack of papers that are starts and almost finishes of stories and such that I've written. I found one that I started before I moved...It was kind of a secret. I never finished it...but think I'm in the right mind to now.
It starts out in a letter that the main girl is writing to her love whom she has not found yet...she is writing it in and to the love she dreams and hope and believes that she will find.
So enjoy reading, tell me what you think please. :) <3
Thanks so much.
Sincerely, Paige
Consider this my lost works.
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Dear,Love
I doubt at this moment I know you, or have even come to know of your existence. But I don't doubt the feelings I will have for you.
The deepest most sincere of feelings, so pure that describing it is not an easy task. I fear it may go unsubscribed forever
At this point I am all hoping you return these feelings.
My passion often scares people but you reading this, love, means you stayed long enough to find me out.
I love you for this.
Come cold, hot, rain, snow, hurricane, or tornado I will not stop. I think of you often, love. Then count all of the possible time differences between me and you there could be. I'm trying to figure out how we will, and come to be.
I listen to songs that I'm sure remind me of you, just to imagine the movement your mouth makes while you are singing to me. Oh, how I long to kiss that mouth love.
Someday. I will.
You understand what I'm saying, and as you recite my words back to me I know who you are. Love.
I'm not bound to marry a man, I can live and die alone if I so do wish...but love you have changed my mind!
I still wish I could describe my feelings for you. But these words in my mind jumble with this feeling in my heart that says "not good enough!"
You make me shiver in every loose and tightly knit fiber of my being.
Time space and courage may converge before you ever read this, but I will be kind in knowing that you eventually did read it.
Or.
We meet. Cross paths in the brink of changing lives and on this brink we love each other.
You will hurt me every time you call me when you are drunk, or utter to another girl.
I will hurt you every time I go to him when you hurt me, or I dash your pride.
Our trials will only lead us closer love.
In the end I think of nothing but you. Always.
Make in you and the universe is sensible again.
Love, whoever you are
wether be my black knight, prince on a white horse, jedi knight, guy in the band, or my average joe...I think of you always.
-Love, Love

drop the bomb.

Forgive me
I've done nothing wrong
I'm sorry
I've taken so long

Its the fear

Fear of me
Fear of my heart
Fear of the words I might say
Fear of knowing I love you more everyday

Its scary
I love how it feels
But know how it can hurt

Crazy

I love it
Every stomach churning turn
Everything about it
I fear that I love it

I fear that I love you
I fear that if I tell you
The world will stop

My words drop like bombs
Blowing away every fear I had set
Waiting for the fallout

Really?
You do?
You love me to?

This is something I certainly never knew
So now it seems who really dropped the bomb
Is you

the angel.

What is this?
What am I?
Becoming like someone with new sight
Seeing it all for the first time

Amazement makes my eyes
Glitters with hope
Sparkles with anticipation
I see what is going on around me

I dream

Words are falling out
Making myself known
One giant step for me
What do you see in me?

I see
An angel
Hope for the day that is here
My song

I went looking for a miracle
Looking in obvious dismay
Up and Down in the wrong direction

Thinking it to late
I'm to far gone in the wrong direction
Tap tap on the shoulder

I see my angel
My hope

It was you

The Pages

I keep my life in a book
Call it a
Journal
Diary
Notebook
Whatever you want

I call it my lifes work
I write everything down
My thoughts
My dreams
And randomocity it seems

But it truly does hold my dreams
shaking them loose from my guarded mind
Finding their way to people in time

One day it could be on the shelves
Selling itself
But nobody really knows
Not even I
Because it might go unread till the day I die

Its my heart
My soul
My mind

On the pages I buy time
Make it like I never did before

All you ever wanted to know
Is here
Broken binding
Torn and stained pages
In this book

You'll find me