You and I See Me

You see me as you want to see me

Only simple words

Only simple definitions

Nothing too complicated

Too good or too bad

It doesn't make me sad

Not in the least bit

Nope

Because

I wake up everyday and proceed to say

"You see me as you want to see me

I see me as I want to,too."

As far as you're concerned

The following words may or may not be true

But you don't have to worry

The closing statement is in no way directed at you

I'm not pretty or ugly

Nor to grounded to fly

I'm not stupid

Not afraid to die

Yep

Because this,ahem

Is my final statement

I am beautifully made

Willing to dream

I get confused sometimes

Do love life while I'm 'live

And that...

Is for me to decide

The Fan and The Fame

I am unimpressed by "fame" in person

Because a person is all it is

Persona sometimes created by the media

Worshiped by the money makers of the industry

Made of skin

Made of cells

Made from dirt

Made of all the same things as I

You are unimpressed by me

You call me a "fan"

Seemingly just a random unimportant human being

You just don't seem to care where I'm coming from

We are the cycle of things

Both the same

The fan and the fame

Sings the songs

Writes the words

Be's the characters

You inspire me

I inspire you

We give life the credit

They give you the money

They put you on the stage

And you thank me

We never get to meet at eye level no matter how close we step

I don't see you as they do

I see you as me

The fan and the fame

One in the same

the "bad" idea

Unimpressed by your fame
Those guys in bands really are just lame
Just that guy who sat by you in class
Great friend
Big Flirt
Bad idea
Big dreams
Nothing too material
Open up his mind and I want to step in
Guys in bands
Silly
Begin to priortize
Did fame comsume that smile?
Damn,I'm out of time
But you're out of your mind
The girlies swoon for you
You're tipping the bottle
Just belowful throttle
Crazy life
Great friend
Big flirt
Bad idea
That guy in the band
I knew you before you were just that

say what?

I don't understand your words
Your mixed meanings ring in my mind
Taking up all of my time
I spend every second
Trying so hard to define
This twisted relationship
Yours and mine

just a few things before i die

Now,in random order,this is the asnwer to the question,"what do you want to do before you die?"

1.find "my job"
2.go to taco bueno.
3.see phantom of the opera on broadway.
4.make a blockbuster hit.
5.have an epic song made specifically for one of my(future) movies by linkin park.
6."date" 4 guys that each resemble a different beatle. (1 down,john look-a-like,3 to go.)
7.try out for american idol.
8.kiss a cute stranger.
9.go on a cruise.
10.go to vegas and see the love show at the mirage.
11.meet the two still living beatles.
12.date a musician.
13.go to liverpool,and go to every single beatles related location that is mentioned in my "magical history tour" dvd.
14.design a tattoo for a friend.
15.go to the state fair.
16.see paramore in concert.
17.buy and restore an old vw bus.
18.go to film school.
19.obtain youtube fame.
20.have a picnic in the snow.
21.travel around europe.
22.have at least 100 things on this list.
23.makeout in an elevator.
24.attend a "free hugs" event.
25.adopt a pet from the animal shelter.
26.burn the shirt of his that i currently use to keep dust off my guitar.
27.learn how to play guitar.
28.change a stranger's life for the greater good.
29.be on a game show.
30.meet jim sturgess.
31.have my dream wedding in strawberry fields in central park.
32.meet "the one."
33.go speed dating.
34.meet all the people "those guys" always wanted to,but never did.
35.go to a wine tasting.
36.have my "art" displayed in a gallery.
37.go to a karaoke bar,and actually sing karaoke.
38.ride a steel roller coaster.
39.go to every attraction,and ride every ride that disney world has to offer.
40."work" in a haunted house.
42.win a costume contest.
43.take dance lessons.
44.host a foreign exchange student.
45.send in a secret to postsecret.(Done! August 16,2010)
46.send an encouraging letter to a stranger.
47.dance with someone I don't know.
48.have a boyfriend on valentine's day.
49.do something memorable.
50.watch a sunrise and a sunset with someone that is special to me.
51.ride in a train.
52.win a major contest of some sort.
53.fall asleep in a hammock.
54.finish my novel.
55.go to a class reunion.
56.go to montana and worry a squirrel.
57.go to utah.

58.have a one on one conversation with Christofer Drew.

59.learn to actually play my guitar "Flora" is her name.(refer back to #27)

60.Perform in a play one more time.

61.Meet someone who "gets me"

62.Kiss in the rain.

63.Get at least one person to realize how useless hate is.

64.Save a life.

65.Have a boyfriend that dosent make me feel uncomfortable. (DONE! His name,Philip)

66.Get serenaded.

67.Be a vegetarian for at least a solid month...if not longer. :) (DONE! March 22-April 21,2010)

68.Become a certified tattoo artist.

69.See an All Time Low LIVE show!

to be continued...

you point the finger

I lie awake and cry
You made me out to be the bad guy
Your words slander my name
Scattering the pieces
Burning the blame
I took my responsibility
Held it over my head
With a big red arrow pointing down
I lay in my made bed
I can't call you out
Or make you take your blame
Because obviously they'll see it and look at you with shame
Don't worry love
Because those lies you told
Made everyone point my way
Making me live with it
Day after day