Reality Alternate

Sitting wrong side up on the couch

Feet dangling in the sky

Tears let not the plants die

Forgiveness came at midnight-noon

Mailed the letter to P.O. Box

Nowhere important

Where someone important

Reads "To whom it may concern"

The men of dreams?

Always present in the ladies mind

That is where their dreams tend to reside

"Dreams come true"

Could be considered fairy tale

But it just looks like reality to me

When our mind's image

Comes to life

little things

This little thing
Invitation to "hang out"
This little thing
Being mentioned in the conversation
This little thing
A drive with the windows down
This little thing
Swinging on the swingset, together, in perfect sync
This little thing
Being spoken to directly by name
This little thing
Riding in the back seat of the "hot car"
This little thing
Sitting next to him
This little thing
Meeting someone new
These little things
Made the day
Thanks to you

can't forget regret

Drip
Drop
The sound of rain
Like the sound of tears
Letting out the pain
Showing all my fears
All the wasted years
I wish that you were near
But I know you will never hear
I'm sorry my dear
My words falter to the darkness
This empty room
Hears nothing but the regret
Something you may
Some things I can never
Forget

POV

Incorporate that song
Listen it
Feel it
Believe it
Make me want to
Do The same
Lets us soar not
On wings of eagles
But…
On the backs of pigeons
Seeing the world
In a different light
Believing that all things
are possible
Even from the strangest
Smallest
Point of view
Let the melody guide
Us…

you take me

You grab me by the waist
You kiss my lips to yours
It was less than a year
My fears opened your doors

The night silent
Sticky like the sweat
It was created

You take my had
Lead me much deeper than
A threat
I dip in my feet

Such sweet resistance
It comes from the core
You take me by the soul

Open up the door
Not welcome anymore

You tangle me up
Like sheets
I lie in them no more
Closing the door

missing the muse

Have I become empty?
Why can't I write it down?
There is pen and paper
All I do I lie down

I try so hard now
To make something flow
This blank girl
Is waiting for her muse to show

The time ticks by
All I can do is cry
All I can ask is why
Did my spirit have to die?

spin record round

Unplug the chord
Turn off the power
Let down the needle
It is no longer comedy hour

Spinning around
Again and again
Pictures of yesterday
Slowly fade away
Barely knowing
Wanting
Wishing
You would stay

The time passes slowly
The hour hand is stuck on
3am
I must be lonely

It finally picks up
Things finally caught
Then the music ends
With a crackling halt

I would like to stay
All hours
All day
Eventually all will notice
I've gone away

We are still breathing
But we have been dead
For a while

Death to real love
Something that might last
No way moving all to fast

Too good to be true
What it seems to you
Silly me still hoping
This could pull through

But it ends tonight
No heart
Just vile
Because hey, thats whats in style
What it seems to you

into my reflection of self

Self reflection
Its helping me
I am figuring out what
It means to me

Among the
Heartbreak
Tears
Anger
Lonlieness
Insecurity

I finally find myself happy

She Is Happy

She wakes up greets the day
Not so long
Not far away
Beautiful like she knows
Messy but planned never knowing
What

The radio is broken
She sings her own song
The only tune her heart knows
It could be worse
Why make her own curse

People surround her
Some filled with love
Some filled with hate
It a test she takes every day
Somehow smiling the fears away

They all can't help but say
She is so happy today

My Secrets Make Me

I hate secrets
They just create little bombs
I have many yes
I hate them just as much
True
The only reason I keep them
Is to hide who i really believe I am
Wretched
Disgusting
Ugly
Lonely
Depressed
All I want to do is make a list
Of all my secrets
All the twisted things I do
All the sick things I think
I want you all to know me to
You might put me me away
Shun me, you're through
But at least then you would know
That the girl you're seeing is true

Bullet for her Valentine

She walks home every day
Hoping for a call that seems to far away
"I'm sorry" he would say
"Sorry for hurting you"
But that call never comes
She only gets the call that says
"I'm drunk"
"Come and get me now!"

No mother to mediate
She gets in the car
And drives to the broken down, shabby little bar
She looks at the scars and cries
When she sees the anger in her father's eyes
She knows what is to come
It has once, twice, three times been done

She tries hides best she can
Runs but is found again
But this time the road is a dead end
His fists hit hard
Her ivory skin turning blue
He tires and gets in
"Lets go home"
Now its almost 2 in the morning
What else can she do?

He crashes she cries
Outside on the front step
Her tears fall and dry
She dosnt want this anymore
She goes to her father's dresser drawer
Pulls out a handgun
Loaded for sure
She goes to the garage and closes the door
No word for goodbye
Only wanting to die

Finger on the trigger
Pointing to her head
She dosnt hear a gunshot
But shattering glass instead
Turns to the eyes of a stranger neighbor at best
His brown eyes beginning to bore
Her soul
"Dont" is all he says
Coming trough the window
Took the gun held her tight
"I called the police, its over tonight."

The red and blue lights promise her comfort
It ends tonight she sighed

A year later she has a new home
New parents that love her that would never do harm
She goes to his door step
Lays down a box with a note and a knock
She leaves

Coming to the door he sees
The box contains a bullet engraved with words
These
"You saved me."
And on the note what it said
He never knew the wind took it away with a gust that blew
Simple the little words that he already knew
"This is the bullet that almost killed me."
"This is the bullet that brought me to you."
"You saved me that night, forever I'm thankful."
"You saved my life that Valentines night, my life and my heart."
"This bullet is for you my Valentine. My guardian angel."
"I thank you.For giving me back my life."

In general : I'm a drifter, watch me go

I didn't go to school today because of some reasons of self sadness. But oh am I over it now.
I just went outside and the day smells of summer, slightly warm with a nice breeze cutting in to dance with the sunshine. I got dog poo on my shoe on this outside trip...but all well.
I'm so ready for summer now that it's killing me.
After 13 years of thinking about summer dreading its end I'm certainly ready to be able to be excited about the end of summer, in term celebrating the coming of fall.
I have no real plans for my life...but the summer...the feeling makes me think that wherever the wind lands me....
I will be happy. In general.

Alexis inspires me

I really want to give a shout out to one of my best friends in the world; Miss Alexis Hall! I love her so much, the optimistic way she looks at life makes me smile. She inspires me to do things that I love, and to be myself in doing these things. She is great in all her God given talents and imperfections. The girl is amazing!
Love you lots Alexis. <3


I'm making a list. Well a few. The things in life I want to do, need to do, should do...yes a DO list. I have been tweaking about a lot of things lately. And I don't really have the guts to say whats on my mind. But I've realized that when I say the things on my mind, get it out there...I feel so much better...So begins a newish era of self discovery.

articficial acid burns heavy

Far longer than anticipation
Floods the veins of your existence
Hallucinations
Creations of your own

Her eyes light up like rainbows
Curves like the bottle you keep your genie in
Voice of a siren
Lures you in

The floating parade of clouds
Multi-colored insane asylum
Tasty cotton
Words are running dry

Dancing away you take the lady's hand
Prancing goodbyes to your cares
Falling senseless to the worldly dares
Risk nation

Angel takes a cut in
Denial
What is the best thing
You're the victim now my friend

You let go
Falling deeper
Connecting to all that has failed
Become better will you..?

Welcome
This is your artificial acid trip
Deception that never ends

Dear, Love

Today I was looking through a huge stack of papers that are starts and almost finishes of stories and such that I've written. I found one that I started before I moved...It was kind of a secret. I never finished it...but think I'm in the right mind to now.
It starts out in a letter that the main girl is writing to her love whom she has not found yet...she is writing it in and to the love she dreams and hope and believes that she will find.
So enjoy reading, tell me what you think please. :) <3
Thanks so much.
Sincerely, Paige
Consider this my lost works.
____________________________________________________________

Dear,Love
I doubt at this moment I know you, or have even come to know of your existence. But I don't doubt the feelings I will have for you.
The deepest most sincere of feelings, so pure that describing it is not an easy task. I fear it may go unsubscribed forever
At this point I am all hoping you return these feelings.
My passion often scares people but you reading this, love, means you stayed long enough to find me out.
I love you for this.
Come cold, hot, rain, snow, hurricane, or tornado I will not stop. I think of you often, love. Then count all of the possible time differences between me and you there could be. I'm trying to figure out how we will, and come to be.
I listen to songs that I'm sure remind me of you, just to imagine the movement your mouth makes while you are singing to me. Oh, how I long to kiss that mouth love.
Someday. I will.
You understand what I'm saying, and as you recite my words back to me I know who you are. Love.
I'm not bound to marry a man, I can live and die alone if I so do wish...but love you have changed my mind!
I still wish I could describe my feelings for you. But these words in my mind jumble with this feeling in my heart that says "not good enough!"
You make me shiver in every loose and tightly knit fiber of my being.
Time space and courage may converge before you ever read this, but I will be kind in knowing that you eventually did read it.
Or.
We meet. Cross paths in the brink of changing lives and on this brink we love each other.
You will hurt me every time you call me when you are drunk, or utter to another girl.
I will hurt you every time I go to him when you hurt me, or I dash your pride.
Our trials will only lead us closer love.
In the end I think of nothing but you. Always.
Make in you and the universe is sensible again.
Love, whoever you are
wether be my black knight, prince on a white horse, jedi knight, guy in the band, or my average joe...I think of you always.
-Love, Love

drop the bomb.

Forgive me
I've done nothing wrong
I'm sorry
I've taken so long

Its the fear

Fear of me
Fear of my heart
Fear of the words I might say
Fear of knowing I love you more everyday

Its scary
I love how it feels
But know how it can hurt

Crazy

I love it
Every stomach churning turn
Everything about it
I fear that I love it

I fear that I love you
I fear that if I tell you
The world will stop

My words drop like bombs
Blowing away every fear I had set
Waiting for the fallout

Really?
You do?
You love me to?

This is something I certainly never knew
So now it seems who really dropped the bomb
Is you