the angel.

What is this?
What am I?
Becoming like someone with new sight
Seeing it all for the first time

Amazement makes my eyes
Glitters with hope
Sparkles with anticipation
I see what is going on around me

I dream

Words are falling out
Making myself known
One giant step for me
What do you see in me?

I see
An angel
Hope for the day that is here
My song

I went looking for a miracle
Looking in obvious dismay
Up and Down in the wrong direction

Thinking it to late
I'm to far gone in the wrong direction
Tap tap on the shoulder

I see my angel
My hope

It was you

The Pages

I keep my life in a book
Call it a
Journal
Diary
Notebook
Whatever you want

I call it my lifes work
I write everything down
My thoughts
My dreams
And randomocity it seems

But it truly does hold my dreams
shaking them loose from my guarded mind
Finding their way to people in time

One day it could be on the shelves
Selling itself
But nobody really knows
Not even I
Because it might go unread till the day I die

Its my heart
My soul
My mind

On the pages I buy time
Make it like I never did before

All you ever wanted to know
Is here
Broken binding
Torn and stained pages
In this book

You'll find me

Almost New

You make me feel guilty
For living
Crushed beneath the wheel
Burnt by the flame
I always feel that I'm to blame

Trying so hard
Swimming against a current
Screaming for help
You drown me in shame

Locked inside
No key to fit the door
The house is burning
To the floor

Mad
At myself

Because you make me feel guilty
For living
It's true

Forever beautifully broken
Far from
Almost new

Amazingly You and Me

What were you thinking
Silly little girl
No time to pout
Change is upon you

Devastation came
It went
Standing up for yourself
Saying no
Choosing where you want to go

Smiles now outnumber
Frowns are rarely from the people
Now
Your light is back

They see it
And realize you were telling the truth
You found someone
Its odd to you how

Different
Life can be
Amazing

Just Like
You and Me

The Reality of this Romance

School bell rings
Go out turn my phone on
Dial his number
He actually answers

"Are you at home?"
I ask
"Yeah."
He answers
"Ok. Well bye."
I hang up

Drive down the road
No caution in the wind
Drive up the driveway.

He meets me outside
I say nothing
Embrace him
Enjoy the moment

I dont know how long it will last
"I miss you"
"I know you want her and won't stop"
"I want you, and I won't stop"
"I couldnt live with out you knowing"
The words fall out like rain from the clouds

Shocked
Speechless
I'm walking away
He grabs me

Kiss me
He kisses me
I kiss back
We are both understood

Thats it the end

School bell rings
Go out turn my phone on
Dial his number
He dosn't answer

Drive down the road
Sitting at home
Wishing he and me
Could be

Reality

ghost of a girl

Ghost Girl
She can't find her body
Follow the screams
Ecstasy and Pleasure
She knows better
Running from the truth
Of her actions
Forbidden the touch is
Searing and Electric alike

Ghost
Knows what is real
Screams of pain
Begs for it to stop
Waits for it to end
Fears what is happening
The mistake

Girl Ghost
I gasp
Back in my corpse
Living but dead inside
Its over
Now I feel the pain
Physical yes..but no
Emotionally I am barely alive

Girl
Alive on the oustide
Dead on the inside
My night as a ghost
Tore her apart

making sense of this romance

Outside of my window
A melody filters into my ears
Memories playing like a favorite film
Of yesterday

I close my eyes
Release the tears
Turn my head thinking I can see

Your hurting me was
Unintentional
But how could you not know
Or understand that
Your the only thing that makes sense to me

Still to this moment
I know that is true
I'm singing along
To this tune made of all that is me and you

One step and I take a look and see that you are indeed
Outside of my window with your radio
Trying to make sense of this thing we have
One million songs could have hummed through my mind

But it was that one
So its time for us to decide
Where we are now
Together or apart

Till death do us part
I do
Live this Romeo and Juliet type of
Undefined romance
With you
The only thing that will ever make sense to me